Bear

My heart is so broken
My house is so empty
I feel so alone
He was such a good boy and deserved the absolute world. He had love bursting from every cell in his body in everything he did.
My son, husband and I had no idea that he had become the heart of our entire house until he died yesterday.
He was my constant shadow. Having the shadow ripped away feels like my heart is bleeding
He made us all happier. There are so many great memories, but right now I can only focus on regrets and guilt
I can’t stop thinking of all the things I wish I’d done for him. Taken him on more walks, let him have other dog friends, taken him on vacations, let him experience what it’s like to swim, been less disciplined
This is obviously not the ideal memorial to write. But nobody can love a dog they haven’t met, so it just feels more natural right now to describe my thoughts. I know that time will heal, but living in day 1 makes that idea feel like I’m in a slow motion nightmare
Love you bear